Today you told me I was useless and I let you.I let you hurt me because honestly i thought,and still think i deserve it.
I have told you before that I thought I was and you tried everything to make me feel like I wasnt and it worked then you told me that,and even though you emotionally abuse me on a daily basis,that one thing hurt more than any physical abuse ever could.
And no IT DOESNT HAVE TO BE PHYSICAL TO BE ABUSE LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.
I stopped fighting back when you say things but I have to admit,it feels pretty amazing to defend myself.Like when you say something and i automatically say something back,even though im terrified of what will come out of your mouth next,i get a little shock in my chest.
How can you look at someone out of anger and just say anything you can to hurt them and everything you KNOW will hurt them then expect them to forgive you when youre done and said what you had to say to make yourself feel better?
Better yet,how can you look at someone,say all those hurtful things,then when you feel better say you love them still.
Because you are mad does not mean you say things out of anger and think everything will be peachy fucking keen once youre done with your attack because it isnt.You cant take back what you say and you cant expect people to let it go when its their deepest fears and insecurities that they trusted you with.